Lately I’ve definitely had a chip on my shoulder, especially on twitter. And for that, I apologize. I don’t deal well with being asked the same questions over and over and over and over. I definitely need to learn to just bite my tongue and either ignore or just auto-pilot.
I don’t think I’m hot shit, infact I am incredibly insecure and constantly worried that everyone hates me. Maybe that’s what you are seeing.
As for being a cunt to people who want to “get to know me for me and not for being naked on cam”…. I just don’t think people should be entitled to my friendship, that just because someone wants to talk to me, I should be forced to go out of my way talk to them. I go out of my way to be nice and helpful to people who just use me everyday. People use me to feel like they are special, people use me for advice, people use me to hear their shitty lives are still okay, that women will still date them even though they are human pity party. All without ever asking me how I am and really meaning it. Believe it or not, if I cater to every person who wants to “be my friend”, I would have less time than I already do for the actual people in my life, who already complain that I’m not present enough.
It’s not so horrible to ask you to come to my chatroom and JUST CHAT with me. Not spend. Just be there. When I say something, you reply. Maybe you say something and I reply. I won’t be your friend online if you won’t make any efforts to be my friend. And the effort I ask you to go through is to make sure I’m not lonely on cam, and we can be friends. But if you want to text, “just chat” on skype or DM me on twitter, step off. That’s not how I want to be friends with anyone, ANYONE!